I am in hospital now and it’s certainly gotten more real as I get ready to wind the day down and try to sleep. Even though it’s been a mentally exhausting day I am not really very tired yet. Wish I had a couple of bottles of wine or something to take this edge off. By the day of surgery I will most likely be quite anxious to say the least.
Earlier tonight one of my nurses went through what to expect post-op. No one had gone over any of this in too much detail yet so I am glad she did. I thought that I had a good idea of what to expect but hearing some of the details was a bit surprising and unexpected. It will be very tough, which I fully anticipated, but it is still going to be okay. It could be possibly a week in the hospital after surgery then off to someplace to go through some more of the recovery process.
I don’t know when I will be going back home at this point – it will quite possibly be a few weeks. My main goal is to get as well as I can; right now I am not worried so much about getting home as I am focused on recovering as much as I can before I get there. I feel that getting well is where my energies are best spent.
It’s just a waiting game for me right now. And for the next two days. I am so excited to get through this and get back to traveling, going where it’s possible to go safely, and having some big fun. It is what being retired is supposed to be about (to me, at least) and I have not done as much as I want even though I have done quite a bit of travel the last few years. Finishing my last three states is high on the agenda this year and there have been plans started to do just that. I have to go get my dog at some point, wherever he will be, and getting the trailer out for trips. I have family and friends to visit. Europe is not looking to be very promising this year, and Canada is not looking to be much better at the moment but I can find plenty of places to go.
So yeah…I have been busy thinking about “the road”. Then again, I always dream about that.
I just wanted to post a short update for those who are interested. Guess I really need to think about getting some sleep…
Meghan was here last week and we cracked open this bottle of a new wine I bought called “Freakshow”. This is a bold, delicious Cab with a lot of body and flavor and it’s wrapped in a very cool label. I would definitely recommend this wine and I’ll buy it again. It was worth the splurge spending a few more dollars to try something new and interesting.
I got my ‘rona booster and today is two weeks after that so my immunities should be good but I will still take precautions and mask up. I had the flu-like symptoms about 12 hours afterwards and into the next morning but I got up, got busy, and it subsided. I was still tired and a little achey but the worst part was over. Still better than a ventilator.
No more ponytail! After a year and a half I finally got a haircut last week. I just couldn’t be that “long-haired bald guy” any longer but was not getting a haircut until the ‘rona calmed down and I got my shots. With the weather getting warmer it will also be nice and cool once again. Now that I got my hair cut I can have a good picture on my new passport for the next 10 years. I hope to get that done in the next few days before I go in for surgery. One less thing to do afterwards, and I am sure I will have plenty of other stuff to worry about.
And, finally…the biggest news…
I go in hospital next Monday in preparation for my surgery on Thursday. Essentially I have to go in and spend four days there before surgery just to be on an IV. I had pushed all of this aside in my mind, knowing it has to be done, but still scared as hell. That changed after I saw the doctor last week and even more so after this past Tuesday’s appointment to sign the surgery paperwork. Now I am REALLY fucking scared about it all but it has to be done. At least it is now only a double bypass; originally they were thinking it would be a triple but the surgeon said that the stent they already put in is working its magic and he is happy with how that is progressing. That was some really good news.
As I was driving home from the surgeon appointment my truck broke down on me so I had to get it towed again. Luckily I was not far from home but it is still a pain in the ass. I am not sure what broke but after looking into it I think that I have a pretty good idea of what’s wrong with it. I just cannot deal with it now since I don’t want to leave it someplace for several weeks. I won’t be able to drive after surgery anyway so I will just have it fixed when I get back home. At least I had already gotten most of the things done I needed to get done before surgery, but not everything was finished so I may have to get a ride to run a few last-minute errands.
I will, quite obviously, be out of commission for a while afterwards. I will post something when I have something to post and I am able to do so. My recovery will be my main focus…that is the most important thing to be concerned with.